I lost my virginity to my mother, and I think more guys should

Just to specify ages: my mother was 42, I was 18

I have always been more on the introverted side. I love dark humour (the more messed up it is, the harder I laugh), history (particularly antiquity), when I was 13, I assembled my first moped engine, and when I was 16 I made my first vacuum tube amplifier… as you can tell, what I lack in the social department, I definitely make up for it in the brains department. Growing up, and throughout high school, I didn’t have much of a social life. I had a small group of guy friends, and we’d hang out regularly, but it never really involved girls. By the time they were having their first loves, girlfriends, and high school sweethearts, I was making particle chambers and reading the works of Emile Zola.

However, ever since I hit puberty, I had a strong sexual attraction to my mother. At first, I tried to hide it as much as possible out of fear of what might happen if she found out, but she knew (somehow). After my 18th birthday (she got me a book), some months after she sat me down because she wanted to talk with me about certain “things” I do. Suffice it to say that felt like the longest conversation of my life, but eventually, she broke the ice with what her true intentions were here. I was all too happy to do it, and, well, it happened.

Listening to my friends’ first time stories and then comparing that to mine, the two cannot be compared. There was no stigma for me, no fear of messing up, no “oh, what do I do now?”, or “oh, it was so awkward”. She guided me through it, showed me the “ins and outs”, if you will, and at the end said she was open to doing it again. We have been in a sexual relationship for over a year now, and it has only been purely beneficial! Yes, since then I have had a sexual partner or two, and my first time being with my own mother made me so confident inside that I no longer have that fear of “oh, what if I mess this up?” Not to mention the feelings and emotions of my first being my mother, and how closer we have gotten since we entered into a relationship. Even though we’re 24 years apart in age, I somehow understand her better, support her better, and feel her desires and sorrows better. Is this relationship as fantastic as some people make it sound like on this platform? No, of course not. But, with all of the benefits we both got out of this relationship, I see no reason why a young man’s first sexual encounter cannot be his mother. Besides, “mom knows best” doesn’t she?