Kasım 30, 2025
zaten kaybolmuş hissediyorum ve hayat daha yeni başlıyor
Merhaba, ben 19 F, ABD’de yaşıyorum ve kendimi boğuluyormuş gibi hissediyorum. Şu anda üniversitede bölümümle ilgili bir işte çalışıyorum, ilgi alanlarımla ilgili bir stajı tamamlıyorum ve dünya çapında gönüllü olarak çalışıyorum. Aklımı kaybediyormuşum gibi hissediyorum.
Derslerime gitmeyi ve işte tembellik etmeyi bıraktım çünkü bana anlamlı gelmiyorlardı. Arkadaşlarım ve ailemle ilişkileri sürdürme konusunda çok az isteğim var çünkü bu zihinsel olarak yorucu ve yalnız kalmayı tercih ederim. Okulda öğrendiğim şeyler umurumda değil ve herhangi bir kapasitede çalışmayı pek sevmiyorum. Gelecekteki iş piyasası o kadar kasvetli görünüyor ki, hayatımda gerçekten ne yapmak istediğime karar vermeye çalışırken kendimi amaçsız hissediyorum. PMDD, DEHB ve kaygı belirtileriyle mücadele ettiğim için üniversite benim için kolay olmadı.
Şiir yazmayı, seyahat etmeyi ve güzel görünmeyi seviyorum. Para kazanmaktan, yatırım yapmaktan ve harcamaktan da keyif alıyorum. İstikrarı ve özgürlüğü arzuluyorum ve para benim için tüm bunların kilidini açıyor. olduğum noktadayım Cidden OF başlatmayı düşünüyorum ama internetteki açığımı göstermemeyi tercih ederim.
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hi!! hopefully you’re doing well. im still quite young too but i relate to what you’re saying! i would MUCH rather be alone than socialize with others, even if im considered popular. what id do is take a step back! if college is causing you too much stress, try to plan your days ahead of time; small bit of studying, then small breaks, etc. also, if you like being inside, maybe take some online classes? but i’d say not too much,, whether we like it or not, we have to be outside sometimes!
as for finding what you wanna do in life; just branch out! i found myself at an incredibly dark place just this summer following a breakup. i was genuinely going insane! even thoughts of suicide. i would talk to my partner all day, EVERYDAY, and i would keep going for them! so losing them,, left me with absolutely nothing but my own thoughts. so, i was forced to make do. i found that guitar was my passion, and taking it seriously has made me happier than ever! traveling and poetry are beautiful! try getting more in tune with your hobbies, and even branching out to different ones! it seems a little cliche, but there is SO much to do! humans should never be bored.
and if your passions don’t bring you much joy,, i greatly recommend working out. i know you’ve probably heard it a million times, and i don’t wanna be like those “gym bros” who convince everyone they see to get in and put in some work. though, it GREATLY helped me get through my mental instability! i don’t care about my build much; i like to think im pretty attractive too. but you do sound a lot like me; so getting out of bed is probably incredibly hard, right? staying focused and studying is GOD awful too probably.. a way i got through this is self improvement! small wins in your day like taking an hour or a half hour to do some cardio, and seeing the results come as time progresses will do WONDERS! small wins like just making your bed in the morning will get you through the day! i promise, just start tomorrow morning! you’ll feel the effects.
as for the future,, im a little worried too. i find myself a little stressed about the job market! i would like to major in something to do with my passions, but im scared that it wont be a viable career,, so youre not alone! but i promise, you WILL get through this! once you truly get in a “flow state” i guess lol, life will be much easier! work might be tiring and stressful for you, but coming home to your hobbies and passions will make up for it! i like to think about life as one big cycle, and once you get in that cycle, everything comes easy! i really hope you get through what you’re struggling with, you are stronger than you think! 🙂
ps: do NOT start an OF.. you might be super hot! and it is a really easy way to make money, but i really don’t think you’ll enjoy any of the money that comes. its too humiliating imo.
The best and only advice I can give you is to never take advice from reddit
You have a ton of contradictions in this post. My advice is to jump into CBT as soon as you can. You are young and have plenty of time to figure this out, but for now you don’t make sense.