Aralık 13, 2025
Şimdi hayatımda ne yapmalıyım? 18 milyon
yani her şey ben 14 yaşımdayken başladı, internet dalgası ve çevrem bana tüm bu internetten para kazanma olayını ve bunların hepsinin matris olduğunu düşündürdü. Hâlâ çocuktum ama merakım beni bu konuya derinlemesine daldırdı.
Zaman geçtikçe işletmelerin biraz para kazanmasını denedim ve başkalarının benim yaşımda yaptıklarını tamamen görmezden geldim. Şimdi 18 yaşındayım, 4 ay önce Hindistan’dan ABD’ye çalışma vizesiyle geldim. Şu anda ayda 8-10 bin civarında bir gelir akışım var. Amcam burada yaşıyor, bu yüzden barınma ya da diğer şeylerle hiçbir sorunum yok, çoğu insanın düşündüğü gibi hayat mükemmel. Ödediğim 4 yıllık eziyet artık işimi daha da büyütüyorum. Ama şimdi ergenlik yıllarımda kaçırdığım şeylerin farkına varıyorum, bunca başarıdan sonra bile mutluluğu bulamıyorum. Maddi açıdan akademik olarak iyiyim hala içimde bir parça eksik, bu da her sabah moralimi bozuyor. Üniversiteye gitme ve hayatımın tadını çıkarma dürtüsünü hissetmiyorum. Bütün arkadaşlarım çok şey başardığımı ve artık hiçbir şey için endişelenmeme gerek olmadığını söylüyor ama yine de geceleri uyuyamıyorum bütün gün gerginim sebepsiz yere hiçbir şeyden zevk alamıyorum ya da parayla bile mutluluğu bulamıyorum. Her gün spor salonuna gidiyorum, sağlıklı besleniyorum ve hikayemi başkalarıyla paylaştıktan sonra bana önerilen her şeyi yapıyorum.
Sebepsiz yere ağladığım için çağrılabilirim ama işte bu, şimdi hayatımda ne yapacağımı anlayamıyorum.
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You will be fine and it will take you 2 years to adjust to this new country! Study hard and pass your classes! Go to the gym or library, museums….
whats the business? ecom?
Bro you are only 18, there is basically nothing that youve missed out on that you still can’t do. You even learned the lesson that money doesn’t buy happiness nice and early.
I recommend living for love and forming meaningful connections with other people. Also experiencing beauty. Fun experiences. New and exciting things. etc.
Or you could go the full on hedonistic route. Immerse yourself in the sensory pleasures. Sex, drugs, and rock&roll.
Or you could go the Buddhist route. Work towards enlightment to escape the cycles of rebirth and suffering. Maybe for yourself maybe for the benefit of all beings.
I was raised in a super religious family and was a missionary on my 18th birthday. That ended and then I had nothing. I realized the same thing – I missed out on all the normal teenage stuff and the hardest part was I had no way in. I didn’t know the culture and language of that world because I had lived in this religious bubble.
You have the money, that’s going to be your way “into” social groups.
First, a warning.
Because you don’t know that world, the impulse will be to dive in completely. You don’t know the dangers, some with permanent repercussions. You must, MUST use all the protections and keep certain boundaries hard and fast. You need to establish in your mind that certain things are a hard stop. These are not theory, this is completely first hand personal experience.
– unprotected intimacy is completely a no. It doesn’t matter what they say or how unplanned or intense the moment.
– driving fast (100mph+) is a hard stop. It probably won’t be you driving, which is even worse. This is literally the most dangerous thing for people your age. Don’t be a statistic. Demand to get out immediately no matter where you are out what the it is. Take an Uber.
– there will be substances and they won’t always tell you what it is or tell you the truth about what it is. I think limited experimentation is part of the experience but there are a few kinds that you can’t go back afterwards.
– you will be lied to constantly, expect it and accept it as part of the experience. People who enter social circles late can be shocked at just how much people say that isn’t true. They’ll contradict themselves and say bad true and untrue things about themselves, each other, and you. Gossip and lies is what makes the world go around. You have to have thick skin and not let it bother you, but also have boundaries
– boundaries is critically important for you mental and physical health. You have to hold your limits ruthlessly, cutting off anyone who repeatedly crosses things you clearly communicated you will not tolerate.
Second, instructions
– your money can be your key if you choose to use it that way. It’s your choice, but it will get you in fast.
– be seen, be generous
– go to night clubs, pool and darts bars, roller skating rinks and bowling alleys.. places where people gather to get to know each other, and when you get there, be generous. Start conversations by asking questions, asking people about themselves. Not just potential romantic partners, but anyone and everyone. There are meetup groups as well. Take up hobbies and hang out with people. Hiking trips, river canoeing, etc there’s apps and stuff, but yeah, do things and when you do things, talk to people, and be generous with compliments and small things like a drink or whatever.
Have fun!!!
Go on a holiday, make some good friends. Get into a relationship.