I am addicted to pooping on the floor

It started off as a drunken dare from my friends. They dared me to poop on the floor of the bar we were at. At first it was just a funny (albeit mean spirited) joke, but now it’s become far worse

In public, I can no longer bring myself to poop into the toilet. Any time nature calls, I relieve myself onto the floor. I get an adrenaline rush from doing it. The risk of someone coming in and seeing me under the stall squatting down and pooping on the floor gives me an almost high feeling. I no longer even go poop in my own house, I go to a random public establishment, often with the intention of only pooping on their bathroom floor.

Private bathrooms are nice, but a bathroom with multiple stalls or toilets just give me a certain rush. I think it’s the extra risk of being caught. I also like to clog the toilet with a mass off toilet paper when I do this.

I’ve also branched out to peeing all over the floor whenever I choose to defecate, just to make the whole pile worse for the cleaning staff. I’ve tried to stop but I cannot for the life of me.

Has anyone else had a similar addiction in their life? I just want to get better and stop doing this heinous act.

TLDR: I have become addicted to the thrill of pooping on the floors of public bathrooms.