Ocak 23, 2026
Hayatım mahvolmuş gibi hissediyorum
22F yaşındayım ve hayatımı mahvetmiş gibi hissediyorum. 18-19 yaşlarında hemşirelik için üniversiteye başladım. Yatak başı işlerine (özellikle vücut sıvılarıyla uğraşmaya) uygun olmadığımı çok çabuk fark ettim ve bundan nefret etmeye başladım.
Daha sonra fiziğe yönelmeye çalıştım çünkü düşünce ve kavramlardan gerçekten keyif aldım ama akıl sağlığım fena halde bozuldu. Birkaç ay boyunca psikoz dönemine girdim ve daha sonra bipolar bozukluk teşhisi konuldu. Bu süre zarfında, sosyal medyada dürtüsel olarak paylaşımlarda bulundum ve kendimi başkalarına nasıl sunduğum konusunda çok utanç duydum.
Şu anda stabilim ve tedavi görüyorum ama kendimi geride ve sıkışmış hissediyorum. Diplomam veya lisansım yok, ailemle yaşıyorum ve net bir kariyer yolum yok. Giriş seviyesi işlerde çalıştım ama ilerleme hissi veren hiçbir şey yok.
Ben de eninde sonunda bir ilişki istiyorum, ancak kendimi yerleşik veya ilgi çekici hissetmediğimde sunacak hiçbir şeyim yokmuş gibi hissetmemek zor. Bunların çoğu korku ve utançtan kaynaklanıyor; ben oyalanırken herkesin yoluna devam ettiğini hissediyorum.
Sadece güvence aramıyorum. Özellikle akıl hastalığı veya yollarını değiştirdikten sonra 20’li yaşlarının başında yeniden başlamak zorunda kalan insanlardan pratik tavsiye veya hikayeleri gerçekten takdir ediyorum. Benim yerimde olsaydınız ilk olarak neye odaklanırdınız?
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As someone who originally went into journalism and then switched to nursing, there are SO many fields of nursing, as someone currently in the addiction/mental health side of things, and you saying you’ve experienced the psychosis and the unfortunate down sides of mental health, it’s something to look into! You might be able to relate to some of the pts on a deeper level and help them realize we’re all human! I deal with bodily fluids not that often and truly think it’s a one of a kind specialty! I went to the LPN route and have worked for 2.5 years as an LPN in addiction and work 3 days a week. Have any other questions just let me know!
Hi friend. 35 here.. you’ll restart. Again, again, and again! You don’t have to know right now or even next month. It’s part of life, the not knowing what the hell you’re doing with it, and I promise you have so much more time than some people try to make it sound like.
I was an executive chef for 10 years, and now, I’m going to law school. Starting at 35. Try be kind to yourself, keep moving and for now maybe focus on what brings you joy. Very happy to hear you’re stable now. Also, look up Ynés Mexía 🖤
I had to restart when I was around 19 and got injured in basic training. I had terrible grades and had to basically start over in community college.
Ended up graduating at 4 year at 28 after a few years of doing nothing. I got a degree that just paid well so I would be decently well off.
My advise is to just focus on what you want your lifestyle to be and the minimum you would need to get it.
Your twenties aren’t really super important outside of getting a career or passion established so pick something and focus on that and it mostly falls into place when you hit your 30s or late twenties. The difficulty comes with staying social later on so try to stay socially active.
i had to restart at 23 after a full crash and burn
no job
no degree
just shame and a pile of “what ifs”
what saved me wasn’t finding the right path
it was building one non-negotiable daily rhythm
wake same time
move body
do one useful task before noon
repeat
that rebuilt self-trust when i had zero confidence or direction
the structure-first restart clicked for me [here](https://NoFluffWisdom.com/Subscribe) when i stopped chasing clarity and started *earning* it through motion
you don’t need a path
you need a pattern that makes you stronger
First and foremost you need to let go of the same and fear. In order to move on and focus on bettering yourself and loving your life more you can not carry that burden of who you were follow you. You need to find a way that helps you release these emotions, stop suppressing them. You are still young, you cares if you live with your parents. I am 49 and live with my son and his family. I am unemployed and stuck but I don’t let that get me down. Start by loving yourself first and then it will project outwards. If you would like this I can pass some along that have worked for me and others I know.