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25 yaşındayım. Son 5-6 yılda 20’ye yakın iÅŸte çalıştım. En son ne zaman tam bir hafta boyunca iyi bir uyku çektiÄŸimi zar zor hatırlıyorum.

Hayatımda yalnızca bir veya iki kez kovuldum, gerisi benim istifam oldu. Şu anda öğretmen olmak için üniversitedeyim ama ikinci kez tahmin ediyorum. Bundan önce PTA olacaktım ama üniversite yaşadığım yerden bir saatten fazla uzakta.

Uyumakta ve uyanmakta zorluk çekiyorum. Genellikle PTO’yu alır almaz tüm PTO’yu kullanıyorum çünkü haftada 40 saat çalışmakta zorlanıyorum.

Çoğu zaman depresyondayım ve neredeyse her gün yoğun ruh hali değişimleriyle uğraşıyorum. Sanırım düşük stresli bir işe ihtiyacım var ama bunların neye benzediği veya onları nasıl bulacağım hakkında hiçbir fikrim yok. Dışarıda çalışmak istiyorum. Şu anda üretimdeyim ve perişan durumdayım.

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  1. Seven0717
    Aralık 15, 2025 - 11:27 am

    First of all, I want to send you a virtual hug. Please take a deep breath and stop beating yourself up. Reading your post, I don’t see a “lazy” person or a “failure.” I see a human being whose nervous system is screaming for help, and who has been trying to force a square peg into a round hole for six years.

    Changing jobs 20 times isn’t a moral failing; it is a symptom that you haven’t found an environment that matches your biology yet.

    1. The Health Aspect (Crucial)
    Before looking for the “perfect job,” please listen to what your body is telling you. The intense mood swings, the inability to sleep, and the struggle to maintain a 40-hour routine sound like something deeper than just “hating work.” Have you ever been screened for ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, or severe sleep apnea? I ask this gently because many neurodivergent people cycle through jobs exactly like this. The traditional 9-5 structure can be physically painful for some brains. If your internal engine isn’t running right, no car (job) will feel safe to drive. Please prioritize seeing a doctor or therapist.

    2. Regarding Teaching
    I say this with kindness: Please reconsider teaching right now. Teaching is the opposite of a low-stress job. It requires early mornings, high emotional regulation, and constant social performance. Given your current burnout and sleep struggles, a classroom environment might accelerate your crash.

    3. Outdoor & Low-Stress Alternatives
    You mentioned wanting to work outside. Nature is incredibly regulating for the nervous system. Since you are in manufacturing and miserable (loud, repetitive, artificial light), try pivoting to these:

    * Groundskeeping/Landscaping for Institutions: Look for jobs at universities, city parks, or even cemeteries. These roles are quiet, solitary, and allow you to work outside at a steady pace.
    * Plant Nursery/Greenhouse Worker: Watering and caring for plants is meditative. It’s physical but gentle, and usually very peaceful.
    * Park Ranger / Forestry Aid: Many state or local parks need people just to maintain trails or watch gatehouses.

    You are only 25. You are not “behind.” You are just trying to figure out your own operating manual. Focus on finding stability and health first; the “career” can wait. Be kind to yourself today.

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