Şubat 18, 2026
işimden utanıyorum
Hey, 19F yaşındayım ve işimden utanıyorum. Çalışmaya başladığımdan beri özgüvenim o kadar düştü ki artık kendimi bile sevmiyorum. 4 aydır bir mağazada çalışıyorum ve bundan hiç hoşlanmıyorum. Belki işin kendisi değil, kasiyerleri biz çöpmüşüz gibi aşağılayan insanlardır.
Ben heteroseksüel bir tıp öğrencisiydim (lise) ve bir diş kliniğinde çalışmak istiyordum. Ama iş aradığım dönemde bu alanda iş imkanı yoktu. Böylece bir perakendede çalışmaya başladım.
12 saat vardiyalı çalışıyorum, tabii ki birkaç gün izinim de var ama hayatımın yarısını orada, benim de hiç hoşlanmadığım bu mağazada geçiriyormuşum gibi hissediyorum.
Farklı işlere başvurmaya, CV’lerimi diş kliniklerine göndermeye çalışıyorum ama başarısız oluyorum ve kendimi tamamen başarısız hissediyorum ve hayatımın geri kalanında da bunu yapacağımı düşünüyorum. Mağazaya gelen gençleri görünce orada çalıştığım için onların önünde hemen utanıyorum. Genç olduğum ve daha da genç göründüğüm için insanlar benim 15 yaşında olduğumu ve aptal AF olduğumu sanıp bana böyle davranıyorlar ve bu da benim için bu işi daha da kötü hale getiriyor.
Erkek arkadaşım ise hiçbir zaman okulla ilgilenmedi ve yine de çok başarılı oldu, 5 yıldızlı bir otelde çalışıyor ve benden çok daha fazla para kazanıyor. Onun “seviyesinde” olmadığım için onun kız arkadaşı olmaktan bile çok utanıyorum. Bu konuyu hiç açmadı ama incinen sadece benim egom oldu.
EDIT: İnsanları işlerine göre yargılamadığımı bilmenizi isterim. Seni mutlu edecekse yap. Hayatımın sonuna kadar bu mesleğin benim işim olmasını istemedim ve mezun olduktan sonra daha iyisini yapmak istedim ama bu olmadı ve buraya geldim.
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so many students or young people work in retail or hospitality at some point😭 nothing to be ashamed of
You’re 19. This is the lowest you will ever be on your career totem pole. I’m not saying it won’t be worse than this for periods of time for other reasons, but keeping at it will take care of itself.
For the boyfriend part: Women are not judged in the slightest by their ability to earn income or position. Your boyfriend will not care and no one will judge you at all for your job. That’s a thing women do to men and you’re probably projecting.
For the personal part: Keep sending your CV out and be patient. You’ll get there eventually. It’s okay to feel down when things don’t happen right away but things take time. Try being more assertive and setting boundaries at work. You’ll get through this. It’s only temporary.
bestie im so fr: im 21 and just applied to be a stripper about 20 minutes ago. being in retail at 19 is so normal, its actually WEIRD to have a good job at 19 bc it came from extreme luck + talent + connections
I mean, when you see other retail workers, do you think they’re “a total failuire and that this is what [they’re] gonna do for the rest of [their] life”?
And while I don’t know how other countries do it, at least in the US, being on some sort of pre-health track in high school doesn’t really mean anything that it doesn’t even factor into being accepted to a graduate program, much less medical or dental school, in the first place.
You’re so early in your journey, don’t stress about it. As one of my first patients told me before we did her pelvic exam, “We all had to start somewhere.”
Oh girl ♥️ I absolutely HATED retail. I also worked retail at 19. It’s normal, don’t be ashamed.
Everyone will be encouraging here but there is important advice: if you want out of retail, you have to work for it. Keep putting in weekly time to hit those application!!!! I know it’s so hard because you’re probably so tired from retail but I promise you applications are a numbers game (this bs economy ugh).
It also helps to reach out to extended family who might know a dentist who can take a peek at your resume and offer connections.
The people you compare yourself to are literally ghost – not real. Our lives can literally be ended because some asshole decides to make a lane change on there way to work at a job that they likely hate because they may be late and dont want to get “pounts,” that can impact their 3% raise…
A thing i have heard that may not make you feel better but its reality and if you look at it correctly will help you.
“No one will respect you until you are 35.”
Thats a first glance, your under 35, you have no experiance, look like a kid ect ect. The value here is your 19.. you have time to find options… your BF may slave away at that “big job,” for the next 15 years and wake up and see how lost he is (if he’s lucky) or die there like many do.
Point being relax, go do somthing you cant do when your 35, work at a national park, white water raft guide, sasonal work, save $ to travel, move somewhere you want to live, start a buisness, find something you actually enjoy.. try not compare yourself to others we’re all gonna be worm food at somepoint.
Basically dont waste your early adulthood..but you will eitherway.
Option A – chase education/jobs stick with that until you realize you wasted the biggest time of freedom in your life.
Option B – thats yours to decide but you’ll never get the time back. (Do somthing percived as irrisponsible/crazy/stupid/dont get prego).This is where life experiance is built (not working at a hotel for 15 yrs) and you wont regret it.
Long rant talking to a younger version of yourself. Jump sister life is waiting.
Girl you’re 19 lmao. I worked in restaurants until I was 25. You are working a job that is literally meant for people entering the workforce. It’s like being ashamed of drinking water.