Mart 5, 2026
Hayatımı nasıl geri alabilirim?
Kelimenin tam anlamıyla her gün aklımı kaybediyorum. 26 yaşındayım ve geçen yıl zihinsel bir çöküntü nedeniyle psikiyatri koğuşuna yatırıldım. O zamandan beri her şeyimi kaybettim ve hayatımı yeniden kurmam gerekiyor. İşimi, arkadaşlarımı, sevgililerimi, paramı vs her şeyimi kaybettim. Geçen Mayıs ayından bu yana neredeyse hiç sosyal etkileşim olmadan evde yaşıyorum. Ailem akıl sağlığını önemsemediği için bana tuhaf davranıyor ve sürekli yalnız bırakıyorlar. Psikolojik tedaviden sonra beynimin değiştiğini hissediyorum. Hiçbir şeye motivasyonum yok, kilo aldım, güzelliğimi kaybettim ve bütün gün evde yattım. İşlere başvuruyorum ama sürekli reddediliyorum. İki derecem var ve bunun kesinlikle faydası yok. Bu sefalet ve depresyon döngüsünün içinde sıkışıp kalacağımı hissediyorum. Eskiden çok canlı, neşeli, mutlu, güzeldi ve artık umursamadan bütün gün çürüyen bir serseriyim. O kadar çok şey yapmak istediğim halde kendimi felçli gibi hissediyorum. Çok korkuyorum.
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went through a similar crash at 25, psych stay, lost job, friends drifted, felt like my old self just died. tiny steps helped: 1 walk a day, shower, simple meals, then part time gig. rejections suck even with degrees, and finding work now is a nightmare
Time is the greatest healer. I hit rock bottom once 7 years ago. It took a couple years to regain my emotional stability after the things that happened, it took 7 years to get over my anger after the things that happened. I had to constantly choose to be happy and not be stuck in a hole mentally. It was a tough battle.
Working out at the gym, getting out of the house and socializing, trying a bunch of new things and traveling the country, and stacking my money helped me regain my footing all while having a goal in mind. You need purpose, a goal, to get out of bed in the mornings.
I now have a Wife and kid and they have both helped me to heal and get over my anger. I may not have the house yet or make a ton of money but I get closer every year to my goals and I have an amazing partner who adds to my happiness and has my back.
You don’t necessarily need what I have to be happy, I was happy on my own until I met my Wife. I loved my self, albiet angry all the time, but I was actually living my life after being afraid to love truly to myself.
After hitting rock bottom I realized how short life is, how time keeps moving on regardless and how little things really matter, in a positve way of course. My anxiety went away, my confidence soared and I live life on my terms now.
It takes time, but it’s also a choice to live a better life. I vowed to never be a victim, or weak emotionally, mentally or physically ever again and that I was going to f life and make it my b*tch after it f’ed me.
Best regards stranger, hope life gets better for you.
I promise you are not stuck, not forever. I felt like that too. I would recommend you move your body, doesn’t have to be anything hardcore but the benefits of even just light exercise are really good.
I felt like a huge piece of doodoo applying to jobs for a year and three months and getting rejections daily. It’s not your fault. It’s a shit time. I finally found something in my field after a six year gap. Someone took a chance on me, and I think someone will take a chance on you. You seem sharp, just from how you speak. It’s a shame for you to think low of yourself. I believe in you- good luck! Feel free to message me if you feel down.
You’ve got this 🫶