I’m having this girl over that I’ve been talking to for a little bit and she genuinely makes me happy and I want things to go farther with her. It is currently 11:51PM at night right now and about 20 minutes ago I decided I just wanted to get off before I went to bed (I’m a teenager, if this helps anything)
So I decided to get on my floor because I just washed my sheets about an hour ago and I didn’t want to sweat on my bed. Where I moved on the floor had my back sat up almost completely straight. I pulled up something on my phone and started to jerk off.
While in the process I noticed my dick looked a little bit too close to my face. In the heat of the moment and the fact I wanted to know what it felt like, I attempted to do what probably a lot of people wish they could do.
I only got about the tip and maybe a little bit farther but it still felt kinda good. I proceeded to switch from jerking off to doing what ever the hell I just discovered I could do until I eventually cxme. I made sure that I came on my body because even in the heat of it I still realized that if I were to cxm in my mouth that would be absolutely nuts. (I got the tiniest drop on my tongue which i immediately spit out)
As soon as I finished, regret immediately flooded my thoughts. How could I do such a thing? What would she think if she saw this? How down bad am I really?
I’m hoping that this is one of those things you look back on when your an adult and just think about all the hormone’s in your body to blame for what happened. I immediately oathed to never do anything like what I just did ever again
Until those days come I decided to get on here and admit my wrong doings so that I can atleast feel a little better about myself. I’m probably not going to be able to go on this date feeling the same way I planned to but I only have myself to blame. Especially the pain in my neck and abdomen, gonna be a real mood killer.