**UPDATE: No I don’t believe she’s actually trying to kill me. After reading a lot of the comments My best guess is she doubted the severity of my allergy and put the walnuts in the brownies to prove her point in a really stupid way. I’m going to sit down and talk with her and if this is the case, I’m going to break up with her. I called her and said I wanted to talk with her later today.**
**will post an update after saying how it goes**
So I’m posting this here because I feel like I’m going crazy. Me  and my girlfriend  have been together for almost a year. We have had a great relationship until this event recently. We’re both in college, and we had a Friendsgiving event to go to with our group. It was a pot-luck sort of thing, everyone brings your own dish, I brought mac and cheese and my GF also made some brownies. I’m only mentioning this because it’s relevant, but I am deathly allergic to walnuts. My girlfriend knows this, if she gets me food she makes sure there’s none in whatever she brings and I usually ask again just in case as a reminder because you would be surprised what has what in it.
Later at the party, I was going to go over to have one, and I asked her to make sure there were no walnuts and she said there weren’t. I went ahead and ate one. Then I began to feel a bit dizzy and nauseous. I went over to my GF and mentioned I didn’t feel so well, asking again about walnuts or cashews in the brownie and she said no. She said I was fine and to just enjoy the party. Then I realized I was starting to break out into hives and my throat was itching and realized I was having a reaction. At this point, I felt my tongue start to swell up and I could feel my airway getting smaller which is extremely scary as it means I was going into anaphylactic shock. I asked her for my epi-pen (Usually keeps it in her purse when we go places since I don’t have a bag) but she said it was in the car and ran out to get it. I used it on myself and had to go to the hospital.
It was really embarrassing because I basically killed the party for everyone, but everyone was just glad I turned out ok. This is where there’s a problem. I didn’t eat anything at that party except the apple cider and that brownie. I asked my GF about it again and she broke down crying saying she did put them in there as it was “in the recipe” but forgot when I asked. Apparently she remembered after I had to go to the hospital and felt really embarrassed it took so long to remember and didn’t want to tell me.
I feel like she’s lying to me. She never buys anything or cooks with walnuts (She’s said she hates them). But then she puts them in brownies and then “forgets” she did after asking her twice and saying I’m going to eat them? She has known I’m deathly allergic ever since we started dating and I just don’t get how she “forgot” twice, especially if she literally made them 2 hours before? The problem is if she did it on purpose that literally makes no sense either. I don’t see why she would ever do something like that but I also don’t see how it could be an accident.
I’m just very confused and concerned. In all honesty, I really like her but I’m tempted to leave after that because the whole ordeal was very scary and I can’t help but blame it on her but I’m also scared I’m overeating and maybe it really was an accident. I’m just not sure.